first and foremost, WEE~ I managed to sign into this account! Finally!~ Had issues remembering the password... Tsk!
anyway~ I'm sorry that I haven't been visiting you guys like i used too, cuz this time, im studying over here as well, things clash. I have obligations, duties, responsibilities, blah blah blah plus I'm losing the stamina to run around, climb and go crazy like i used too.
BUT~ my passion for climbing is still embedded in me. Nothing is better than the sense of accomplishment I feel after i finish a route. Nothing can beat the feeling of freedom during the moment after I fall from under/ the corner of the roof (the part where you swing). Nothing feels more real than knowing that the life of the climber is in my hands as I belay OR while I'm leading (i feel kinda naked without top rope).
I remember the times when rock climbing was still something so new to me. It was the thought of climbing after school that kept me awake during class (makes me feel hyper). It was the very thing that i looked forward to every training day. Sure, I wasn't that good a climber.. heck~ i haven't even top roof (bloody thing-.-) but somehow, I love rock climbing. I love the time I spent training, going through level 1 & 2, orientations, crash course and hanging out with you guys~ (hate teaching people how to tie figure 8 though.. can vomit blood)
Granted, you guys are like my second family as school was my second home. You guys are like my very own personal laughing gas and we all know laughing is good~ Do know that I hold you all close to my heart (everyone say aww~).
moving on. Then I was in Sec 4 and rock climbing was suddenly very... boring, very bland. There were times when I lost the drive to attend training.. It was very difficult to balance soo many things at one time, namely O levels, remedial, remedial, more remedial and training. But i managed to made it through~ well.. not really la, i cheated by applying for aussie uni and got accepted before I sat for O. If I was to go and apply for courses with my result.. not much.. cuz I failed Maths (saw my grades dropping the very moment i stepped into sec 3).
anyway, that's not my point... My point is that what kept me going back for training was looking at all your newbie faces, so excited and enthusiastic... it reminds me of the old me, when I was a newbie. Plus you guys needed us, seniors, once again, responsibilities, sense of duty.. but i wasn't really doing my job as a senior la, I play too much, talked too much rubbish and was crazy most of the times. Some of you were irritating.. some still are!! *cough*Omar*cough* (stop calling me bimbo)
Sure, there are occasional pressure from the teachers and coach to perform better... occasional for me la, I don't know how it is for you individually. Cuz let's face it, I had been getting into finals but never really top 3. Nothing to boost about... sure, I do get tired from the almost constant "nagging" to do better but I dont treat it as salt to my wounds.. I just climb.. but i needed orders from Yan to climb. I call it "The Push". Amazing catalyst, works for me cuz I usually cannot finish what Yan wants.. so I worked on it until I completed it (the usual stuff: climb up & down how many times; add weighs; routes) then i pester him again.
I'm sure the type of motivation varies among individuals.. but the thing about finding the drive to attend training, esp when you are like seniors.. relies heavily on how you view things negatively/ positively. Find out what you like best during training, focus on it, know that CCA points is going to help in N/O level and imagine the joy of pushing the juniors around~ sweet heaven~ (I'm jking, the last part only)
Stop thinking, words from teachers & coach are feedback, regardless if they are said straight in your face or not. Feedback, no hard feelings should be involved..
Juniors, stop acting like primary six kids, you guys are in secondary school... we are your seniors now. We demand respect! Wait for your turn to be jackasses like us.
In short: I know what is happening in our club. I know how it is like when rock climbing becomes blah~. I don't know how stressful it is as the top climber. I want you guys to know that I'll always be here as a listening ear that can talk back as well. I want the seniors to be the seniors they are to push the juniors, motivate their passion and ignite their drive.
and that I will be coming to visit once more next thursday (26 feb) after my exams, before I fly back.. I know~ sad right~ (everyone better be sad).
anyway~ I'm sorry that I haven't been visiting you guys like i used too, cuz this time, im studying over here as well, things clash. I have obligations, duties, responsibilities, blah blah blah plus I'm losing the stamina to run around, climb and go crazy like i used too.
BUT~ my passion for climbing is still embedded in me. Nothing is better than the sense of accomplishment I feel after i finish a route. Nothing can beat the feeling of freedom during the moment after I fall from under/ the corner of the roof (the part where you swing). Nothing feels more real than knowing that the life of the climber is in my hands as I belay OR while I'm leading (i feel kinda naked without top rope).
I remember the times when rock climbing was still something so new to me. It was the thought of climbing after school that kept me awake during class (makes me feel hyper). It was the very thing that i looked forward to every training day. Sure, I wasn't that good a climber.. heck~ i haven't even top roof (bloody thing-.-) but somehow, I love rock climbing. I love the time I spent training, going through level 1 & 2, orientations, crash course and hanging out with you guys~ (hate teaching people how to tie figure 8 though.. can vomit blood)
Granted, you guys are like my second family as school was my second home. You guys are like my very own personal laughing gas and we all know laughing is good~ Do know that I hold you all close to my heart (everyone say aww~).
moving on. Then I was in Sec 4 and rock climbing was suddenly very... boring, very bland. There were times when I lost the drive to attend training.. It was very difficult to balance soo many things at one time, namely O levels, remedial, remedial, more remedial and training. But i managed to made it through~ well.. not really la, i cheated by applying for aussie uni and got accepted before I sat for O. If I was to go and apply for courses with my result.. not much.. cuz I failed Maths (saw my grades dropping the very moment i stepped into sec 3).
anyway, that's not my point... My point is that what kept me going back for training was looking at all your newbie faces, so excited and enthusiastic... it reminds me of the old me, when I was a newbie. Plus you guys needed us, seniors, once again, responsibilities, sense of duty.. but i wasn't really doing my job as a senior la, I play too much, talked too much rubbish and was crazy most of the times. Some of you were irritating.. some still are!! *cough*Omar*cough* (stop calling me bimbo)
Sure, there are occasional pressure from the teachers and coach to perform better... occasional for me la, I don't know how it is for you individually. Cuz let's face it, I had been getting into finals but never really top 3. Nothing to boost about... sure, I do get tired from the almost constant "nagging" to do better but I dont treat it as salt to my wounds.. I just climb.. but i needed orders from Yan to climb. I call it "The Push". Amazing catalyst, works for me cuz I usually cannot finish what Yan wants.. so I worked on it until I completed it (the usual stuff: climb up & down how many times; add weighs; routes) then i pester him again.
I'm sure the type of motivation varies among individuals.. but the thing about finding the drive to attend training, esp when you are like seniors.. relies heavily on how you view things negatively/ positively. Find out what you like best during training, focus on it, know that CCA points is going to help in N/O level and imagine the joy of pushing the juniors around~ sweet heaven~ (I'm jking, the last part only)
Stop thinking, words from teachers & coach are feedback, regardless if they are said straight in your face or not. Feedback, no hard feelings should be involved..
Juniors, stop acting like primary six kids, you guys are in secondary school... we are your seniors now. We demand respect! Wait for your turn to be jackasses like us.
In short: I know what is happening in our club. I know how it is like when rock climbing becomes blah~. I don't know how stressful it is as the top climber. I want you guys to know that I'll always be here as a listening ear that can talk back as well. I want the seniors to be the seniors they are to push the juniors, motivate their passion and ignite their drive.
and that I will be coming to visit once more next thursday (26 feb) after my exams, before I fly back.. I know~ sad right~ (everyone better be sad).
LYT
